This post is about the moment I can't breath yesterday.
Seriously I thought I will die at that moment.
I struggled for half an hour without breathing properly and all in my mind is my Mom and I keep regretting on what I have done so far.
Looking at my sister, she is crying while finding envelope for me to breath. Looking at her makes me feel more guilty.
My dad keeps on calling my brother asking him to come back home to fetch me to hospital.
- Why I'm doing nothing for a long period.
- Why I can't treat my family better.
- Why I can't take good care of myself while I know I have asthma.
- Why I act like that as a friend.
- Why I can't be more useful without burdening my sister.
I'm so sorry Mommy.
I realized I didn't keep my promise to be a better human.
From this moment, I don't wanna promise anything again until I can keep my promise with you.
I know you're worried about me until your last breath.
I wanna be more useful from now on.
Although there is a lot of things keeps on discourage me but I hope I can get out from the circle I draw for myself.
Get going Woo Pui Yee.
Mommy I love you.
